Aaaaw you should'nt be so unsure about yourselfe I have a friend and she act REALLY strange because she has self-esteem problems too.

I was one of her last friends, but she's really bossy and want other people to do as she say, and she ignores others feelings...and then you lose your friends

If you are afraid that people say you suck when you post a video with your song/voice thingy, nevermind them, just take your change. And IF it sucks, you can learn yourselfe to do it better next time. Succes and just try :3

It's not that it sounds like it sucks. It sounds like I'm twelve. And I look twelve, too. People, often when they talk to me, they sort-of baby talk to me, and I find it highly offensive. (Even though I'll appreciate it when I'm older, but not when I'm seventeen.)

And thereason why I have self esteem issues is because when I was little, like nine or ten years old, I used to live in an apartment with, and pardon my language, but for lack of a better word, a family of douche-bags that lived downstairs. The mother would pick on me all the time. There was this one time when her eight year old daughter was talking about French Kissing boys, and me being nine, and still thinking that boys are "Icky" I said "Ewwwwww....thats icky" where the mother replied...to MY mother, "I know, Sara is gonna be a lesbian when she grows up." And I'm nine, so she obviously knew I wouldn't know what a lesbian was. It was hard for my mother to explain it to me.
This same woman treated my brother like crap as well. He has mental disabilities, and she'd scream in his face and say how much of a fucking retard he was. To an eight year old with mental disabilities.

Then I moved from that into another hell where I was called ugly and stupid, and had alot of people make fun of me because I have a kind of limp. (ironically enough, I'm friends with one of thoes girls.) I really only have a few friends. maybe 3 or 4 true friends, anyway. I don't like to let people into my life. It's really hard for me, because I become emotionally attached with someone, and I've had my heart broken so many times.

I guess I'll put it up and post it into this journal, so keep watching me!
The song was originally sung by a japanese man, by the name of HYDE (his band name). You should listne to his music. Beautiful, beautiful man.

That felt really good to get off my chest. Sorry for piling all this on you. but I'm really happy you care.

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Alan's voice...like red wine and bitter chocolate. Velvety and very very sexy. -Chaobaby7

Only you can prevent forest fires! Which is good, because I've got stuff to do.

You didn't put a link I am 41 and sound like a child of 12, I like that though, I have a childish voice and always have done.

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"Smooth newts float in their Spring finery like miniature dragons in garden ponds"

from BBC breathing places calender 2008.

It won't let me load it. My audio card isn't working right on my computer. But I just did a computer update so I'm gonna try again.

I'm actually excited about putting it on there!

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Alan's voice...like red wine and bitter chocolate. Velvety and very very sexy. -Chaobaby7

Only you can prevent forest fires! Which is good, because I've got stuff to do.

shure..i ll listen..

I cannot get it onto youtube. My computer won't save the movie file. XC

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Alan's voice...like red wine and bitter chocolate. Velvety and very very sexy. -Chaobaby7

Only you can prevent forest fires! Which is good, because I've got stuff to do.

No problem you tell me this :3

I guess you've had hard things to get through, but keep in mind; Things can only go better now Even when people act mean to you now or in the future, just go on with YOUR life. I know some people who are SO negative about everything, and they forget they've had many happy moments too (uh like me sometimes XD I use to forget the nice things in life too)

Just try to find something that makes you happy, like singing and drawing, and when you joy that, you'll probably feel more sure about yourselfe :3 And other people can feel you are more happy, so bad things will leave (I hope so) And YOU are posting yourselfe singing, so when other people make laugh at you, keep in mind they probably don't dare to post themselfe singing *puh*

I try hard to be happy, I do. I think I'm depressed or somthing. X(

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Alan's voice...like red wine and bitter chocolate. Velvety and very very sexy. -Chaobaby7

Only you can prevent forest fires! Which is good, because I've got stuff to do.

Trying is the first step eh Hmm many people of our age get depressed bacause of a lot... But you have to learn how to deal with your past, you shouldn't let it dominate your future Other people can't see or smell what you've been through and stuff And you can tell me about your problems/and to other people in here and at home of course, but don't make it the main thing to talk about with everyone when you meet new people Mind your first impress (really important,my experience)Your first impress could be that one of a normal 16-aged girl who likes to draw and stuff